“You Need To Control This”

My feelings on how invalidating it feels when people say I need to control my anger. Because I already know that. Tell me what I need to do and I’ll get nowhere. Tell me how to get to where I need to be and I’ll actually get there. That’s what you say. Or something along

Scars Poem

Written about my self harm journey. Yes cutting has saved my life time and time again. You may be ashamed of my scars But they’re what kept me from going too far The blood that fell into my hands Made me a stronger woman The broken glass Yeah it threw me on my ass But

Privileged, Not Poor

*Pondering some things. Thought about my life and how I really didn’t see until now what I’ve always had.* Laying here again sharing a couch with you, how long has it been since you’ve actually had a bed to sleep in? Going and getting free food left and right, how long has it been since

You Vs Me

Originally started to help get out some homicidal tendencies but quickly got emotional. Still wanna keep the original title. If weren’t for weed I’d be off on a killing spree It’d be you against me I’d hit you in shades of three I’d hit you so fucking hard you’d see I’d hit you hard enough

Killing Spree

A poem about how I feel when I get homicidal and suicidal at the same time, trying to put a creative spin on it. I want to go on a killing spree But it’s me I am the thing that should not be I can continue to scream But I can’t breathe My God I

Pain Poem?

Wrote this in 2013 I’m surprised by it’s accuracy even today It was too good to be true,All along I had been some tool for you to use;I hope the end is soon-I cant keep on dreaming these memories of youIts as if you took a match to my faceAnd burned me in place,Scathing me,Muffling

Race Against Ourselves

Inspirational thoughts coined while observing Race Against Myself by The Offspring Stop trying to run this race against yourself I’ve been running against myself for years I see us both running ourselves ragged we can stop this and if we can’t then we’ll run it together

Weight Of The World

Wrote this about the pain I experience. Wrap the weight of the world around my wrists and ankles, push my head under the water only to pull my head back up for air, and repeat the process over and over as I desperately gasp for air each time, only for these said weights to drag

Halo

Inspired by Starset’s song Halo. You were there to replace the crown on my head and remind me of not just who I was but who I could be. The devil can’t make you dance this dance forever, let me rip out his horns and shine the light on your halo.

Suicidal-Homicidal

Have you ever felt two emotions at the same time? But so powerfully you couldn’t handle either one? A few days ago, I did. I don’t even remember the trigger or triggers. I just remember needing to go walk saying “I’m gonna kill someone or myself I wanna do both”. I ended up walking seven